I`M GOING TO JAPAN!!

Whooott :DD
That gives me a good reason to unblog my blog.

Muahhaahh!!

Anyway, I doubt anyone is reading this :P

This holiday is definitely something to remember, even before I go to Japan.
It has taught me alot about family, friendship, annoying people (aka DROOL), relationships etc.

I just feel like this whole weight has been lifted off my shoulders.
Before this, I would be dreaming and worrying about the same thing night over night.
But not anymore.

And I thank you for that (:


Now, imma leave for Japan in peace,
cry there for a few nights,
then start camwhoring like crazy,
and last but not least,
come home and laugh laugh laugh.

MUHAHAAH!!

Loovess (:

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Sometimes songs can speak so much. Just the harmony, the lyrics, the way its sung. You can express so much, everything thats hidden inside, with just a song.

Lies lies lies. Its true that one lie leads to another. And another, and another. Eventually the lies pile up and there's no way to get out. Sometimes you lie to protect someone, or maybe just protect yourself. The truth hurts most of the time. And us, just mere humans, deadly afraid of being hurt, lies to run away from the pain and sorrow. But sooner or later, we'd have to face the truth and explain our lies. Yupe, the explaining part sucks the most.

Sometimes when you lie too much, it makes it hard for anyone to trust you ever again. You come to a point where you realize that all the lying in the past does not pay off when this one person, whom you want so badly to trust you, doesn't. So yeah, it sucks being the kid who shouted 'WOLF' too many times.

But what if this works two ways? What if, you're being lied to too? Its so funny that we both say we trust each other no matter what, but yet we still doubt each others' words. We say we'd never get mad at each other, and yet we still do. Words are so easily manipulated. People no longer say things they mean, they just say it to please others.

So, how can I trust you when your actions speak otherwise?

How do you be with someone that you feel guilty around? How do you like someone that tells you you're living off the guilt for all the things you've done wrong? Shouldn't he be saying; It's alright. It's not your fault. But then again, he'd be lying, no? But I don't get it. You just like rubbing it into my face that I screwed up right? Well, thanks for your support. I feel much better after talking to you about my freaking screw ups.

Hmm, I barely update nowadays cause nobody reads it anymore. soo, it's like a dead blog. But I said its like, not entirely. Soo, I'm rekindling the life of this blog. HAhaah !!

Anyway, I think it soo tiring to update about my life and outings *blablabla* cause you have to post up pictures, write captions, tell the whole story etc. I'm way too lazy to do that anymore. So I guess, whenever I update, it'd be about some crap problem that I'm having in my teenage life. Hahaha!

And this is just a false alarm. I don't have a teenage problem now. I'm just updating for the crap of it. Muahah !!

Aight, bye (:

Hopefully you're reading this cause I don't know how to tell you this by myself.

Anyway, remember the last msg you sent to me? Well, I only got half of what you wanted to say. Bottom line is, the text didn't fully get through. It got cut half way so I only got to read the first part. And it didn't sound like a good way to end anything. Soo, I just really want to know what the content of the other half was.

And I'm sorry for everything I've done. Yess, its stupid of me for always apologizing without doing anything about it, but it's probably the only thing I'm capable of doing. I'm sorry.

`You're A Jerk :D

I was wrong about you.

Yupe, I actually thought I was guilty for making you suffer.
And I take back everything I've said to you.

But thanks for the lesson though.
I'd make sure not to trust anyone like your species again (:

Peace, Jerk :D

George something on our history book was famous for the line; Those who cannot remember the past are condemmed to repeat it. But I remembered it vividly and yet, it's repeating itself. I did not ask for all this to happen. Yet I feel the pain that its causing. I keep telling you that I'm no good for you. I'm not who you think I am. I'm not as nice as I seem to be. I'm a bitch. Everyone knows that. I lie, I deceive, I pretend, I backstab. I'm everything thats bad for you. And I'm guilty, guilty for everything. I just feel like running away. Escaping from everything thats causing both of us this much pain.

I still remember how horrible it felt when this happened the last time. Tears wouldn't stop streaming down my face. I'm sure the pain was so unbearable that I won't be able to feel anything even if you stabbed a knife into my heart. The torturing silence that literally killed me. And when you were finally talking to me again, its as if I've been given a second chance to live. And now, it's all happening again. Just that this time is different. The feeling, is different.

Sometimes I wonder to myself if everything you were telling me if real. People keep telling me not to trust you. But, its just that when you say it, it sounds soo real. It sounds like you mean it, like you mean everything you say. I really want to trust what you're telling me is true. But sometimes, what you do shows me otherwise. Nowadays, I just feel like I don't know you anymore. Like you're a total stranger to me. Last time, I use to think I know you best. Like I knew how you felt, or what you like. But now, everything is blur. The image I have of you in my mind doesn't seem to fit who you are now. Did what happen change who you are now? I'm soo sorry to have caused you all this pain. Its my fault. Everything is my fault. I'm guilty of all charges. And guilty of everything.

I just wish to fall asleep and wake up, hoping that I've forgotten everything. If I had a choice, I'd run away now. Run away to a place so far that you'll never be able to find me. Just so that you can carry on without me. And don't worry, you won't miss me when I'm gone.

Without me, you'd be free.

P/S : Liking a person is not judge by how much to you talk to each other. Its about the feelings you get even when you say hi.

I LOVE G.I.JOE.

Seriously. There were fighting scenes from the beginning till the end, literally.
And I LOVE IT !!

OhmyGawd. This movie is totally a 9.999/10 (Cause the ending part was abit potong)

I can watch this a million times again, just like Transformers :D

Hmm. Other than that? Highlight of the weekend;

Saturday : Installation BBQ Night
Sunday : G.I.Joe , Steamboat

Soo lazy to blog. Haih.
Byee.